I remember clearly my COOPS 2nd Stage Final Presentation at July 2008, at PT. INCO, Tbk. My mentor, Bpk. Gustaf G. Songgo attended. He was a -berry busy Mechanical Engineer at that period. He is one of the best Engineer at Central Engineering. He handled major project with high risk and cost. Just by his attendance, encourage me a lot.
One thing that I couldn’t forget from his after-my-presentation-comment is his closing sentence,”I think, she is a real Mechanical Engineer now.” Everyone was clapping hand for me at that time. I was very happy! I was veeeery proud with my self! You know, I’m the only one “Woman Engineer” at Mechanical/Civil Engineer’s Section at that departments. I don’t know, he’s serious with his statement or not, but everytime I remember that moment my heart is filled with spirit and strong will to become a Mechanical Engineer at a multinational company.
He is one of the most motivating and influencing in my life. He taught me from zero about mechanicals. He proves me, when there is a will, there is a way. I always unconfident with my self competence, but he always encourage me. His favorite statements are : “There are lots of ways to go to Rome” and “A thousands miles journey started from a single step”. He always put the words, “young lady” at the end of his statement. It is really fun to have a short journey and recalling all that proudly memories. At that time, I chose “mechanical engineer” as one of my life target.
I still feel that strong passion now. It’s just everything seem not as good as my plan. I never tought that it’s very hard to enter a multinational company. I started to think that maybe I were not that talented in mechanical. I started to work on something beyond mechanical engineering.
It’s already 2 years since that glory time. Heard something related with mining always brings all those sweet memories and passions. I still can’t let that target away. I guess I’m still on my way in completing that mission. Just like Pak Gustaf said, “There are lots of ways to go to Rome.”
Well, it’s hard to wait around for something that might not happen but it’s even harder to give up, when you know it’s everything you ever wanted.
But, I guess, at the moment, I began to realize that it could be wasn’t a life target, it could be just a dream. I know one day I have to let this dream away. It’s just, it’s not the time yet. I need just a little more time to convince my self that it’s not my way to become a mechanical engineer in a multinational company. Just a little more time please…