What Would You Do If You Were Me?

Feel a little bit upset with some persons who always value everything by money, especially in valuing my help or assistance. Well, it’s not a little bit. I am -berry upset. It feels like all your help means nothing when you receive the money. I found lots of them around me. And you know, for some situation I found my self try to avoid some arguing by receiving the money. Do you know that I never keep the money? I aways distribute it to other who I think deserve to receive it, who did the job harder than me. I guess it’s the time start to show my objection and start the arguing. They ruin all my kindness by doing that!

What they don’t know that I assist them because I admire them and I value them more than money. I do realize that they do it because the appreciate my help and they want to motivate me. It’s just, I don’t feel it right. I have my own salary. That’s one of my job desk I guess. Team work. And eventhough I’m not in the same team with them, I will still help them. That’s what friends are for. I appreciate “a-true-thanks” rather than their money. I appreciate their time to create a simple-thanks-card or find a cheap gift rather than their money.

I wrote this just to remind my self, to keep this idealism, in case I start to feel that I deserve to receive that gratitute. Am I doing this right? What would you do if you were me?

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What Would You Do If You Were Me?

The Natural Timer

Again and again! Marriage invitation! I received lots of marriage invitation this few months. Is this marriage season yet? Or should I say, my age is already a marriage age yet for most of people. I am 25 years old now and I’m getting tired answering questions like this : Who’s your boyfriend now? When will you get married? Do you know that your age is the best age range to get married? I am also getting tired for this kind of responds from my answers : What?? You don’t have a boyfriend yet at this age? It’s crucial! *So what? Hello! This is 2010! It’s not that crucial, everyone is still busy in mastering their study at 25 years old now* When will you think about marriage then?!! *Stop judging me! I’m thinking of it. Don’t worry. It’s just not on my top priority* What are you afraid from marriage? You can find so much fun through marriage, you know! *Lalala! Pamparampam! Pretending hears nothing sometimes work* Don’t be so selective! *I have to be selective! FYI, I’m not looking for someone that I can deal with, I’m looking for someone that I can’t live without in my entire life*

I yell, “GO TO HEEELLL!!!!!” only in my mind of course. Is this what human-life-metamorphose supposed to? One of my wise-best-friend called it natural tendency.  My mind played around when heard that term. Natural tendency? Hmmm… I guess that could explain a lot about “The Natural Timer”. Familiar with this kind of questions, huh? :

  1. When will you graduate your bachelor degree? (at around 22-24 years old)
  2. C’mon, find a job now… (at around 23-25 years old)
  3. What are you waiting for? You already have a settled job and you’re age is old enough. Go find your soul-mate and marry him/her! (at around 24-29 years old)
  4. Already have a baby? (about 1 years after marriage)
  5. I guess your first-born daughter/son is waiting for her sister/brother (about 2-3 years after the eldest son/daughter)
  6. And so on.

Feel depressed with all those outrageously-curios people? Or feel depressed for can’t re-schedule the timer? That’s why we called it “NATURAL”, dear. Because we can’t control it. It happens by itself. Feel grateful for those kinds of people, because they are the proof of care and love. God reminds us about our Natural Tendency trough them. Keep reminding yourself to not re-schedule your timer, because you don’t have too. We are all have our own timer. It might be different one to another, but remember there is the average of time. Don’t walk too far from the average.

To be honest, I wrote this just to remind my own self. Receiving my life-steering-wheel from parents makes me too exciting in doing this solo life traveling. I start to feel over-enjoy riding my life, taking chances, and making decision for each chapter of my life. I do enjoy taking control this life fully. I still have too much things to be done solo. I’m not ready yet to engage someone in my whole life adventure. I hear the timer ringing loudly. I hear it and I do appreciate it positively. Don’t worry. I just want to postpone it for a moment.

Just for a moment. It would be okay, wouldn’t?

The Natural Timer

Be Energized!

Palu, September 1, 2010. Gee! 4 months later I’ll complete my first year at this unwelcome city. Still can’t soluble with this grumpy environment. Too much difference, I guess, or too high expectation? Hmm… doesn’t matter anymore. There too much things to be worried than just comfort.

Then, here you are, finally I found that other always think I’m an un-bothered-able person, that I’m an always-happy person. Well, beside my other talents, such as : taciturn, mousy, sleep-aholic, diligent, beautiful, charming, charismatic *God, help me! I’ve got too much positive side to be mentioned!!! Hahahaha!*, I guess my friends are definitely right. I’m an always-happy person *not always, but I tries to always looks happy* Next, lot’s of my friends ask, “How?”. I started to ask myself, “How?”. I analyzed myself then and figured out, here you are some of me that might be worked on you :

  1. I always starts my day with an energetic music! Singing some of egoist or narcissism songs in front of the mirror while get dressed. Don’t forget to do some improvisation with the song and some dance moves *you could find so much fun! Something that I don’t realize is my neighbors are depressed with those improvisations*. Haha! Last but not least, give your best smile to yourself in front of the mirror. Some of my favorite songs : We are golden – Mika, Blame It On The Girl – Mika, Promise The Stars – We The King, We’ll Be A Dream – We The King ft. Demi Lovato, Looking For Paradise – Alejandro Sanz ft. Alicia Keys, Ignorance – Paramore, etc.
  2. When you feel down, get lazy, or sleepy, clap your hands to energize yourself (taken from I’m Gifted, So Are You, Adam Khoo’s Book). Feel embarrassed for clapping hands in the middle of meeting or quiet work room? You can try my other tricks : doing some silly chat with notes, drawing at the last page of your book, annoying other, arguing other, or twitting other. It usually works for me. The point is to find brief activities to refresh you. It does refresh me, when I found my friends get disturbed. Haha! *tricky smile*
  3. For second time I’ve wrote this : Everything happen for a reason. Stop bothering everything! Bothered by something inside your circle. When your project ruined and it’s because your work mate, and you’ve tried your best to fix it and it still ruined, then let it ruined. Be egoist, that’s not yourself who ruined it either, even though other will see that project as a team-work-project. There could be no second chances, but you’ve got lesson from that mistake that other might not have when they accomplish the same project with no obstacle like your team did. Be proud with yourself.
  4. Don’t get mad easily. Getting mad won’t let us chance to think clearly. We’ll just become stupid when we get mad. That won’t solve a problem. Be patient, be wise. I’m still learning it, by the way. That’s the most challenging lesson, because I’m an emotional and un-wise person. My SUHU said, when you facing the most inconvenience and aggravate situation, just convince yourself, that you found the greatest lesson with the cheapest installment.
  5. Life is a sum of your choices. You always have option. Every morning you have two options : to live happily today or not. Even when you get mad you still have option to express your anger. Life is about analyzing the option and taking the best option that completed with all those consequences, learning from your mistakes, and keep moving forward.

Be energized, be happy, rules your own life!

Be Energized!

Patience

Patience is not the ability to wait, but the ability to keep the good attitude while waiting.

Well, it’s started from a simple chat with my SUHU. And all those chats started from a stupid priest who has an extraordinary uncommon method in communicating. I called that method shamelessly. Hahaha! FYI, I almost brush my teeth with the facial foam this morning because of that stupid priest. And this afternoon, I almost wash my face with shampoo!!!! I’m wondering, why I always remember him while I’m taking a bath *Well, that’s quite good rather than get stomachache when remember him*. You know somehow I started to feel wicked for judging him few days ago. Beyond of those scary method had chosen by him, it might be the best method he could think on that situation. And the-silly-unwise-yuriko chose to judge him negatively. What I just realized is, if it’s not because of him, I wouldn’t have those chat with SUHU, and found the lesson of patience today. Again and again, God amazed me with HIS great work art.

SUHU sent me this message :

When you can’t put away your problems, even for a while, I suggest you to go to a shop. You can find the shop easily around Palu, the shop called “HAPPINESS”. Something unique from the shop is : no “HAPPINESS” sold there, because it can’t be sold. The shop sells the seed of patience, sincerely, thankfulness, love, honest, fatefully, and forgiveness. If you want to have it, you have to growing it up and taking care of it by yourself. The most costly seed is PATIENCE. Because PATIENCE is the main ingredient of all other seeds.

Quite different with other economy management, at the “HAPPINESS” shop, don’t buy the cheapest seed even when you don’t have enough cash. Choose the most valuable one : PATIENCE. Choose to buy in installment. Something that we don’t realize that shop with the most annoying and impatient salesclerk sells the most valuable seed with the cheapest installment.

“So, when you facing the most inconvenience and aggravate situation, just convince yourself, that you have just entered “HAPPINESS” shop which sells the most valuable seed with the cheapest installment.

I asked for patience and wise for these last few days, and HE gave me great lesson today about patience. GOD, you’re so cool!

I suggest SUHU to have his own blog to share those great knowledges.

Patience